Let’s talk a little bit for about perfectionism. It's such a drag. Why does this creep into our brain from time to time? I feel like I have let myself off the hook for being perfect and yet it creeps in there every now and then and I'll think: why am I worried about this? Or why am I stressed about this? And then I realized it's because I want to do a good job or I want it to be good. And that's perfectionism really.
Because if I didn't care, I knew I would just do my best and do it, then that would be enough. Right? And so the worry about the result is what causes that anxiety in the moment.
I recently had an audition and it was so fun cause I haven't seen a lot of people that I got to see. And I love that. It's kind of an old community that I miss. And so when I have an audition, I get to see old friends. It's really fun. My friends and I were talking about, because of our age and stage there's less auditions for us. And so we're not as quite in the routine of audition, audition, audition, which makes it much more casual and less nerve-wracking, right? And when you just get one out of nowhere, it's a little bit more stressful.
And so why is that? Because we want it to be good. We want it to be perfect. We want to book the job, right? And so all of that is a monkey on our back. And so it was actually such a great conversation and we alleviated our perfectionism by releasing that deep conversation together.
And it was great and freeing, but I thought, you know what? It's like just when you think you don't have that happening, it happens, right? So it's kind of an ever-present awareness of letting yourself off that hook of being perfect, of making it right. Just do it and not worrying about the result.
It's hard sometimes because we want something or we want to do it well or we want to be good. But really that just causes stress and anxiety. And so as much as we can focus on what we're doing, then our consciousness and our awareness is in the action instead of the result, which causes that tension.
Hope you guys are having a good day.
Courtney Gebhart, Life Coach, Kundalini Yoga teacher, and Human Being.