Transformation: from the pollywog to the frog, the caterpillar to the butterfly, from high school to college, from your first born being single to getting married, from childhood to adulthood to “elderhood.”
Transitions, change and transformation are a fact of life. How we choose to handle it and grow (or not) is what our life will be about. Funny that Julie, my right hand everything in Coaching with Courtney is on the eve of marrying her first born and I am off to take my first born to college. We are in the thick of major life markers, moments you remember your whole life. What I am doing in the midst of doctor’s appointments; runs to Bed, Bath and Beyond; driving all over; organizing and preparing is staying in the moment. The hectic, crazy moment, the laying on my daughter’s floor moment; the purging pictures, stacks of old homework and art, the laugh attack moment, the poignant moment of seeing her sit on her bed and realizing she won’t be there next week.
It is easy to just go to “we will call and FaceTime” . . . and we will and that will; the purging of pictures, stacks of old homework and art; the laugh attack moment; the poignant moment of seeing her sit on her bed and realizing she won’t be there next week. It is easy to just go to “we will call and FaceTime” and we will and that will be fun, but I want to go through the emotions that come up.
It is a transformation, for me, too, as a mother, as a woman, and as a human on my path. The flashbacks of pregnant me and then singing her into being and just the crazy love I have for this little being who isn’t little anymore.
I am a glass half-full person, I am so excited for her upcoming adventures and possibilities but just like I always say, “put the oxygen mask on yourself first, then help everyone else,” it is relevant, what I am experiencing and my transformation too. To acknowledge it, observe it, be present in it so that the moving through it is even a deeper connection to my own true journey of purpose.
So, I laugh and cry and laugh, laugh, and laugh, meditate, ponder, walk and remember and reminisce . . . it feels good to be here, in this moment with this girl. I love her so. Give this gift of presence to yourself when you are going through a “moment,” a time you know you will remember, let yourself be, enjoy it, even the parts that are hard and messy, you will grow and transform and deepen your purpose and clarity by allowing these moments to be truly lived.
Onward we go . . . until next Tuesday.
Love you all!!!
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Courtney Gebhart, Life Coach, Kundalini Yoga teacher, and Human Being.