The door.

A week or so ago I posted-what if you knew you had to open 305 doors before you got what you were focused on? That would change everything because then door 99 would just be a stepping stone to 305.
       Instead, for a lot of us, it is, “uuuuuuuiigggghhhhh another door, it’s not the door yet, omg how many fricken doors am I going to have to open, uuuggghhhh door 35….man, maybe this isn’t meant for me, maybe I am not “supposed to figure this out”, I am so tired, I can’t keep doing this.”
      See the difference? One perspective is energizing, filled with ideas and looking for possibilities to get to the next door. The other perspective is deflating, it feels heavier and heavier and leaves you not even wanting to open the next door because you just “ know it won’t be the answer.”
      Wow! Seriously. Which way are you living your life? This is huge. I think we all start out like the first way. Most of us do. We are eager and excited and filled with knowing we can do it. Then…..the doors start to pile up. This is different for everyone. For Walt Disney, 305 banks said no to his idea, for Thomas Edison 1,000 tries, for JK Rowling 12 publishers turned her down and on and on. You have all heard this before. Nothing new here. 
      However,  what I have realized recently is that you might have stopped short somewhere, in one area of your life while continuing to open the doors in a different part of your life. 
     Here is an example, I was diagnosed with RA a couple years ago. It was a long and painful discovery because of course, no one knew what was going on at first it was, “mono, then Hashimoto thyroiditis, Lyme, torn rotator cuff on both shoulders…”
      At one point I had to have my kids help me get my shirt on. I couldn’t hook my bra, and finally it got so bad that one day I had to uber my son to his coach (cause I couldn’t drive) drop him there and then uber to the ER. I was in the most insane pain. 
     Why am I telling you this hahahaha? Because I realized that recently I have settled for this way of being. I didn’t mean to settle but while I have been busy, working hard, opening doors in other areas I have settled in this area of health! 
      Well shoooooot. That is not acceptable because health has to be #1! It is like building a house in sand. It doesn’t matter how incredible it is if it doesn’t have a solid foundation it will just fall apart. What I realized is that when I was first diagnosed I was really looking, exploring, trying different approaches to find answers and solutions. Eventually though I got tired and just let it be. 
      Can you relate? It is like maybe I am at door 302. I just pooped out but what if 303 is the door and the key to turning this thing around? Putting it back in remission? Would that be worth it? Heck yea!!!!! 
       So back to door opening I go. The process continues. Let’s go. Let’s all keep looking. You just never know what is behind door number……….. :)

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